Searching For The Perfect Church

Is there such a thing? I don't know but what I need to ask is what exactly am I searching for? Is it deepening my walk with my Creator? Is it spiritual growth? Is it fellowship? Or am I just going through some kind of motion?

Maybe it's not the church. It's just me. I'm trying very hard to fit into a place which I spend only 2 hours a week in. Surely this is not enough. The other pursuits in life makes church going just another list of things to do on a Sunday, Christmas & New Year's eve.

I tell myself that church service is sometimes boring. But not all services are like that. There were inspirational ones too. But why do I find some better than the rest? Is it my state of mind? My openness. My receptiveness. Or just my attitude. Perhaps I should let the things of the world grow faintly dim like the song says. I should decrease & He should increase in my life.

The christian journey is an exciting one as some might say. But the challenge is that growing in your walk means witnessing, serving and giving - your time, talent, substance and self. But being human, I am not perfect and hope the living word will gradually transform me to be more like Him.